First of all thank you, thank you, for taking time off of your schedule to read this blog. Never wrote a blog in my entire life, so here it goes.
I came to this country back in 1991. I was in love with a nice guy (or so I thought at the time) who brought me here. I loved him dearly and together we have a daughter. Sadly to say, I learned that I was more of a prize trophy for him then a wife. Let's be blunt. He was a mama's boy . He was always coming with new ideas from his mother, that was trying to implement in our family life. So, after almost 8 years of marriage we ended up in divorce. I have to say , that I have a gorgeous daughter who is mixed ( Jamaican and Romanian). I raised my daughter with the ,,old family values,, and I am happy that she grow up the right way. She will start college next year, trying to get into medical field. Tears comes to my eyes when she tells me that she will take care of me when she will have money, because she is determined to learn and make a lot of money. Let's get back to my divorce. It was nasty, my husband at that time, was doing everything in his power to take my daughter away from me. He did not succeed because I was and I am a good mother. He ended up paying child support and having visitation rights. But unfortunately he never came to visit his own daughter. When my daughter turned 18 and the child support stopped, he was glad ( I guess). I know that he remarried and he has two kids with his new wife. Good for him and I hope that he is happy. Meanwhile, as I was struggling to raise my daughter and take care of my handicapped mother, I met a guy from my country . In the beginning I just wanted to try to help him, as he was struggling to find work. And we ended up together. I started to have feeling for him and again (stupid me) felled in love. He needed a green card and according to him he was unsuccessful because his ex-wife left him in the middle of his paper work processing. I went ahead and paid a lawyer to divorce him, and then I married him in hopes that he will become legal and we will have a nice family together. Wrong again. He was an alcoholic and ended up treating me very bad, hitting me and cursing at me all the time. And that was because I always tried to please him, and be a good wife for him. Six month, before he would've get the green card, he left me for a 25 year old girl and then he had the atrocity to call me an ask me if I can still help me with his papers. I said , is nothing I can do now, he left on his own and nobody forced him to do that. Forgot to mention, that for being abusive , my mother called the police , he ended up in jail, and from there, federal took him into their custody and he was scheduled to be deported. So, I went ahead and appeared in from of the deportation Judge and begged to let him come back to me. I guess the Judge was in a good mood and she told me that if I bring $3000 by 6 P.M. ( This was in the morning around 10 A.M), she will let him come back to me. I went ahead and borrowed the money, and he was out and back with me. Let's just say that he was grateful for about 5 minutes and then he went back to his old ways. So, when he left I divorced him ( I did all my divorce papers by myself) and now I was on my own. I had a pretty good job at that time. I lived in Southern California all the times since I came here, until 2011. In 2009 I was laid off from my job, so I was struggling to survive. I became a caregiver for my mother ( I was taking care of her anyway), but this was only part-time and not paying enough to see me though all my monthly bills. I had to leave Southern California, and moved to Northern California in hope that with my income ,I will be able to survive. And I did for a while, but the bills kept growing and growing and growing. I am on the verge of being evicted and I will end up god knows where with my daughter and my mother. My mother is very sick and I don't think she will see the end of the year, because is is very sick ( Diabetes, Arthritis,Osteoarthritis, Heart problems, High blood pressure, Obesity and many, many more) . She can't speak English so I have to help here anywhere she wants to go, but lately she is just staying in the house. It is hard for her to even go to the doctor. Of course I have to take her with the wheelchair, as she can not stand up on her feet more then 1 minute. Also the doctor put her on oxygen because she really need it. I don't now, what I am going to do, because I was a very optimistic person, with a good income, and now because I am ,,overqualified,, they won't even hire me at Walmart. Well, I do have medical issues on my own, but I am trying to stay strong for my family. You see, I don't have any family in this country, it's just me, my daughter and my mother. My father ( God rest his soul) died in 2005. He was here , then he took a short trip back to Romania, and unfortunately he died of a heart attack there. I wasn't even able to got to his funeral. I am at the end of my rope. From being an optimistic person, I changed into a pessimistic person. I don't see any happiness any more. My mother's pain specialist doctor, said that I am so stressed that he can crack a rock on my back. I lost my sleep, and I am very depressed. The worst part that freaks me out is not having a place to live. So, this is it, I am asking for help. But because I believe in God, from any donation I received 10%will go to my church and I be posting those receipts of my donation. It's just fair that if I get help, I need to give something in return. Thank you to all of you for your kind generosity and I will pray for al of you out there.
BE STRONG ! STAY STRONG !
